Guess what I'm getting? ;-)

My friend that I asked you all to pray for will be alright. I'm still worried about her in the long run but, for now she's alive and well. If you could keep her in your prayers, I'd appreciate it though.

On a happier note, I'm getting a kitten. A newborn kitten. The first one that I'll know one of it's parents, that will stay with it's Mama, and that I'll know it's birthday. Orange Kitty (Sami's cat) is pregnant and in 2-3 weeks, the kittens will be here. Mom decided that because I lost Smokey last month, I can pick one and keep him/her down there. I can't wait. No one will ever replace Smokey and I will always love and miss her but a kitten will be nice. I'll post pictures when they're born and I'll show you which one I pick out and tell you his/her name when I pick it! Lindz is sleeping over and is gonna help me clean my room a bit so I gotta run and do homework and trash some garbage from my room. It's really atrocious today. :( I love you all and y'all truly are great. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. If not for this journal and the great friends I've found through it, I have no doubt that my arms and legs would be marred with scars by now. I can't believe it'll be a year next month that I started this. Wow. So many changes. But I haven't written regularly for that long. Thank you all for everything you've done for my friends and me. For every prayer, every hug, every good thought, every e-card (which I have saved every one), everything. I only hope that I can return the favor.

Eternally grateful,
Vickey

Sunday Brunch

"In a country as big as the United States, you can find fifty examples of anything." -Jeffery F. Chamberlain

1) What state were you born in? NY

2) What state do you currently live in? NY

3) How many states have you been in? (and yes, driving through counts!) less than 10 but not quite sure

4) If you had your choice regardless of cost, which of the 50 states would you choose to live in? Cali, prolly

5) Which of the 50 states would you rather die than live in? Umm.... Idaho

Twenty more

20 Questions from Dawn (Everything Under the Sun) (link in sidebar)   1. What’s one thing you that just symbolizes spring has sprung? Warm weather, no winter coat

2. If you could have it be one season all year round which one would you pick? Can't do that. I need four distinct seasons.

3. Are there any food cravings you have when it gets warmer out? Fruits and veggies. All summer long, I don't eat much dinner (except off the CHARCOAL grill) and all I want is salads and fruits. Drives Dad up the wall.

4. If you could take a summer vacation anywhere on Earth but you just had to leave, and not tell anyone you were leaving, would you do it and where would you want to go? Yes and I'd go to a tropical island with my husband (obviously in the future, if now, I'd go prolly go alone or to Europe).

5. Is there one talent or skill you wish you had but just don’t? Dancing. I cannot dance. I just am not that graceful. I can trip over thin air. <~stealing this answer

6. What’s something you’re listening to that you enjoy but irritates you at the same time? The Wiggles. I love hearing Sami bark and sing and I love dancing with her but it irriates the h*** out of me.

7. If you had a chance to track down a lost love and they wanted you back, after meeting them again, would you leave another person you are involved with for them? It would depend.

8. What’s your favorite kind of cookie? Chocolate chip and snickerdoodles.

9. Who is one person if you could you would select them to be sucked through a hole in the Earth? Oh gosh. Lindsay ("Boone" not Lindz) and Taylor. ::shudder::

10. When you were growing up did you have to get a summer job or did you just loaf around all summer? Let's see. Fifteenth summer coming up. Plans include Darien Lake for a weekend, summer camp, sunbathing, taking FULL use of the complex pool, learning tennis (Excuse me? My father bought me this tennis racket for Easter and I haven't the slightest idea of how to play. Do you think you could teach me? *bats eyelashes*)

11. What?s one celebrity couple you?re just tired of hearing about? Demi and Ashton. And Bennifer was awful!

12. Is there anything about yourself that you wish you could get back? My heart? I don't think I'll ever be the same. So much has happened. I'm not naive anymore. I tell dirty jokes with my friends (tactful but still dirty). I read Harlequins without shuddering. I just wish sometimes that I was still innocent and naive. But Lord shoot me if I ever act it again. I want to believe in fairies with all my heart. In unicorns and dragons. In fairy tales and true love. Part of me will always believe in that but part of me thinks it's all gone forever.

13. What television shows do you feel best sums up your life? There isn't one.

14. If you had to pick to live with a set of roommates whom would you pick out of these three groups: I'm gonna show my naivety here and admit that Three's Company is the only show I'm really familiar with. I know of and have watched a few episodes of Golden Girls, have heard of Laverine and Shirley, but haven't the slightest idea who Felix or Oscar is!

A.) The Three?s Company Gang

B.) The ladies from The Golden Girls

C.) Laverine and Shirley

D.) Felix and Oscar

15. If you could visit anyone on Earth would would it be? At the moment, I'd choose Julia because I haven't seen her in forever.

16. Is there one celebrity you had a crush on when you were young that you look at and think,? Ewww! What was wrong with me?? Umm..... Prolly but I can't think of him at the moment.

17. What have you done in your life that makes you the most proud? Gosh. I haven't the slightest. Not killing my brother. Not killing myself. Helping my friends not cut. Hell, the toughest thing I've ever had to do is convince a friend who had a razor IN HER HAND not to cut herself. Calling 911 last night was tough but definitely necessary.

18. If you could clone yourself what would you have your clone do? We're assuming this cloning was done at birth so the clone would be the same age as me? The housework and some of my homework. I actually don't mind most of my math homework or voice or german. But the english packets suck and so does science and doing my global spiral. 

19. If you were ever lost in the woods do you believe you?re a strong enough person to make it back? Do I have a cell phone?

20. What?s the craziest thing you?ve ever been asked on a date? Oh, that would have to be the time I was asked if I'd ever eat a raw egg for $50. Ha! Yeah right. This involves a date!

Time to go byebye and read more alerts. I'm working on it!

Love always,
Vickey

Saturday Six and another request

1. What is your favorite fruit? Apple and honeydew melon Favorite vegetable? Umm.... corn and mashed potatoes Favorite type of meat? Steak What food causes your diet the most trouble? No diet thus, no trouble. :)

2. What food do you think has the most ridiculous-sounding name? Rutabaga

3. If you had to pick one of the following to experience, which extreme adventure would you choose:
  A) Skydiving
  B) Mountain Climbing
  C) Scuba Diving
  D) Surfing in Hawaii
  E) Arctic Hiking in Alaska
  F) African Safari
  G) White Water Rafting
I couldn't pick just one.

4. What skill do you most wish you could suddenly acquire in your sleep this evening? Skill? Umm..... saving lives but I want to acquire it last night in my sleep because I want to help her live. I want her to WANT to live. Sry. That's directly influenced by current events in my life.

5. How many active prescriptions do you have at the moment? Of those, how many do you take regularly? None and none.

6. You're considering a major change or a big decision awaits you.  Are there any special images you ever dream that tend to guide you in one direction or another or that seem to suggest that the option you're considering is the right one? Nope.

If I can trouble you again, please pray for a friend who may be contemplating suicide. Please just pray for her.

Love always,
Vickey

Quickie update

(Used from www.freerepublic.com)

May His Holiness rest in peace.

Today has been a very interesting day. Ray just got here and Samantha is all wound up because her "Dae" is home. Gosh. It's so fun here. A little irratating at times but, fun nonetheless. Ummm.... quite uneventful really. Just hanging at home. Pudgie's pizza for dinner. Yummy (for once)! The Wiggles haven't bashed my brains in yet this weekend. In fact, we only got through about eight songs of it this morning. hehe ^_^ Time to let Pixie get to sleep and to hang out with Mom and Ray after she goes to sleep. I'll let ya know tomorrow how life goes. Oh, and it rained. All day long. No playing outside for the baby. :( Now, seriously, bye-bye! Oh, and one last thing. Any of you ever seen a 2-year-old wearing a D cup bra? It's hilarious! (And nobody here is a D... yet.)

Love always,
Vickey

Prayers requested

This is just a real quick entry but, I'm at my mom's. I got some news last night that a guy I don't particularly like (though am becoming indifferent to) is not in the best of health. The doctor's have said that it is terminal. This guy is a dear friend's first love. Though they are no longer together, she is still hurting. I ask that you pray for them both and if prayer is not your bag of tricks, please send good vibes and healing wishes. I know this means a lot to those involved. And, now, my baby sister would like to say something,

or maybe not. She's just staring at the computer like it's an alien. So, that's all. I'll be back Sunday night or Monday after school.

Love always,
Vickey

Old entries and a current rant

Yay! Headache gone! On and off today but not as intense. I actually went to Starbucks and a local mini-restaurant. They serve hot dogs, garbage plates, burgers, home fries, french fries, and such. Oh, and free refills on the sodas. Thus, I get suicides. (A mix of whatever kinds of soda you want. I use coke, sprite, orange, root beer [the only way I drink it], and ice.) It was fun. :) Time for (a bunch of) old entries.

3/12/05

I had a doctor's appointment this past Monday, the seventh of March. I went to see if I am bipolar or not. I am, as of yet, undiagnosed. That is not to say I'm not bipolar. Dr. W (my pediatrician) said she wanted to wait for after my appointment with my pyschologist (Dr. I) to see what she thinks. If she says that she believes I am bipolar, then Dr. W may prescribe something. If Dr. I thinks therapy is enough to help, I'll just see her. Which is OK by me. I just want to know what the heck is up with me.

Oh, remember that bus sickness I was getting a couple months ago? It disappeared a few weeks later. I think it was the headlights for some reason. The contrast of the bright lights against the dark sky.

Oh, and Tom. You must remember him for all my ranting and raving. Well, Tom's great, cute, and Christian. Tom's not the next guy for me. There are many qualities about him that I admire/like/love and want in my future husband. But I don't want him. He just doesn't do it for my heart. So Tom shall remain a great friend and nothing more.

Ahh, and a new story has come up with an "old" guy. That, I'm afraid, I can't write about in here until it is resolved in my own mind.

Now, to use my writing skills to boost my global grades! lol Divider pages, here I come.

 

Same day (keep in mind, this is two days after I found out about Smokey and three days after her death.)
So I haven't done my divider pages yet. So it's only been a few minutes. I am tired of being asked if I am okay, if I'm alright. I am grieving for my cat in my own way. If I cry, I cry but I'm still okay. If I laugh, I laugh and I'm still fine. Laughter, tears, lack of appetite, wearing black. All of it is okay. I've been numb, angry, sad, feeling as though I never want food to pass my lips again, wanting to eat everything I can get my hands on. I've felt everyone of these emotions in the past five hours at least once. I swear I saw her yesterday. We were in the car, driving to BG's, and I was looking at the clouds, near the sun. I swear I saw her in the clouds,  peaceful, plump again, no longer skin-and-bones. But then, the wind shifterd the clouds and she looked pissed, hissing, ready to strike. And then the clouds shifted again and I couldn't see her. But I saw just a piece of a rainbow. Not very big, only for a few minutes. I knew though. I knew. It was God letting me know she was okay. She'll be fine and she's waiting at Rainbow Bridge for me. And though I still miss her and I'm still wearing all black, I'm okay. I'll be fine and so will she. But I still miss my baby.

3/15/05

Okay. Unless my teacher is absent tomorrow, I will be singing between 7:30 and 8:15 tomorrow morning EST. So if you listen hard tonight, you might hear my sucky practicing. Some of you may have seen the world premiere. Evening Primrose on TV in 1966, I think. Or maybe it was 1956, I don't know. So listen in.

Same day
I hate that I can't get all my hair up. I'm back to wearing jeans and sneakers. And the cami I stole from Lindz is white. But my hair ties are black and my sweater is gray. Urgh! I just need it, like, two inches longer.

Same day
I have a list of stuff that makes me happy. From "mundane" to "me". Whenever I make lists like this or remind myself of them, I start with Pop-Tarts. I don't know why.

3/16/05

I sure hope none of you were able to hear my solo. I skipped an entire verse and messed up the first phrase (one I've ALWAYS nailed)! I sucked. Hit the notes, hit the rhythms, messed the lyrics atrociously. What makes it worse is that I know I can get it! I've done it before and I can do it. It just flew out of my head. Nerves, perhaps. Or not thinking far enough ahead.

Enough about that. I'm planning a sunrise party if Dad'll let me. Everybody comes around 9 or 10 or earlier (I don't know yet) and we have pizza and chips and crap and watch scary movies in the basement or Dad's room and stay up all night (if you want sleep, my room or Dad's) and we'll watch the sunrise before crashing (if we do crash). Why I think Dad won't let me have this party is because I want to invite some guys as well. Like invite Rach and Dan, Sarah and Zak, etc.

 

 

That's all I'm typing up for tonight. New rant. My father is an ass. Lindz has to talk to me about something important (that I have been sworn to absolute secrecy about) and ten minutes WILL NOT cover it. Damn. And Mom's only a few minutes away. Damn damn damn. Okay, time to go off for a weekend with my baby sister. :) *breathing deeply* Have a great weekend.

Love always,
Vickey

Oh, and did I mention that Gail is here? She is. Yea. I'm not to happy about that. She's a whole 'nother issue though. *sigh* Life will get better in a few minutes. Krispy Kreme, here I come. hehe ^_^