Convo

BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [8:55 PM]:  hey babi girl
HopelessBlondie [8:56 PM]:  hey sugar
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [8:56 PM]:  you didnt im me when i came back so i imed you
HopelessBlondie [8:57 PM]:  sry. i'm having a very deep convo (w/jake) and typing up some of my work
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [8:57 PM]:  oh ok what are you and jake talking about?
HopelessBlondie [8:58 PM]:  Life goes on adn on and on. If I am not here, it goes on. It knows nought who is in it. It does not change from you or me. It just keeps going. Always changing, always the same. Never changing, never the same. Life goes on. ----that spurred it. we're now talking about worry
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [8:59 PM]:  you are you dad? im confuesed?
HopelessBlondie [8:59 PM]:  what??????
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [8:59 PM]:  ohhh
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:00 PM]:  just kidding sorry my mind is on something else
HopelessBlondie [9:00 PM]:  okay
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:09 PM]:  vickey are you ok? be honset
Auto response from HopelessBlondie [9:09 PM]: right back to continue this insightful conversation, jake. & to deal with your problems, lindz.
HopelessBlondie [9:11 PM]:  why do you ask?
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:11 PM]:  i read your blog
HopelessBlondie [9:11 PM]:  oh.
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:11 PM]:  are you ok
HopelessBlondie [9:12 PM]:  honey, you gave the guy that i loved a handjob. what do you think?
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:12 PM]:  vickey just tell me ANYTHING
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:12 PM]:  i dont want you to hide things V_V
HopelessBlondie [9:12 PM]:  no, sugar. i'm not okay. i'm dealing but i'm not okay. you did that willingly and knowing that i loved him. that hurts.
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:15 PM]:  check your comments
HopelessBlondie [9:15 PM]:  it popped up automatically
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:15 PM]:  kay
HopelessBlondie [9:17 PM]:  babe, you are a fucking BLACK BELT! had you not wanted to do that, you could have stopped. you could have slapped him. i know you didnt mean to hurt me honey & at the time, it didnt. but someone pointed that out to me and now i cant deny it & now it hurts
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:17 PM]:  you know i did slap him
HopelessBlondie [9:18 PM]:  not as hard as you could have. honey, you hardly touched him in ratio to your strength.
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555[9:19 PM]:  yeah i know... V_V; and im sorry.... you know not to make you upset but i feel like i dont deserve to have any friends
HopelessBlondie [9:20 PM]:  i'm not fucking dealing with that tonight. i'm sorry but, i just dont have the energy.
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:21 PM]:  yeah i know that
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:21 PM]:  i just needed to say that
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 is away at 9:22 PM
HopelessBlondie [9:46 PM]:  no matter how pissed off i get, you're still my best friend & always will be. i just feel slightly betrayed, slightly peeved. but you're still my best friend and he's still my ex-love/crush. the bond between friends is stronger.
Auto response from BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:46 PM]:  kms? asking myself that...
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 returned at 9:48 PM
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:49 PM]:  hi
HopelessBlondie [9:49 PM]:  hi
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:49 PM]:  sup
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:50 PM]:  hows life
HopelessBlondie [9:50 PM]:  my back is healing-ish
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:50 PM]:  why? from what?
HopelessBlondie [9:51 PM]:  nvm
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:51 PM]:  no what?
HopelessBlondie [9:51 PM]:  it was a metaphor
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:51 PM]:  i dont get it
HopelessBlondie [9:51 PM]:  nvm
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:52 PM]:  oh
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:52 PM]:  ok
HopelessBlondie [9:53 PM]:  blaring alanis is helpful as is talking to jake.
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:53 PM]:  hehe yeah
 HopelessBlondie [9:59 PM]:  time for bed. tty in the morn or on sunday (unless ya call my mom's)
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:59 PM]:  kay
BaNaNaCHiCKeN555 [9:59 PM]:  love ya
HopelessBlondie [9:59 PM]:  you too     Love always, Vickey